why not now go toward the things I love?

 

Myrna and Flowers, c. 1920s Scanned from Myrna Loy: Being and Becoming by kylarose

by Tatyana Yuganova

a few poems i’ve loved recently

• Grief Work by Natalie Díaz
• The Two-headed Calf by Laura Gilpin
• Everything by Mary Oliver
• The Moths by Mary Oliver

a summer moodboard made from pinterest photos

latest roll of film

 

There’s something uniquely beautiful about picking an old hobby back up where you left off to find that no matter how your life has changed, it still feels the same.

“‘Finding yourself’ is not really how it works. You aren’t a ten-dollar bill in last winter’s coat pocket. You are also not lost. Your true self is right there, buried under cultural conditioning, other people’s opinions, and inaccurate conclusions you drew as a kid that became your beliefs about who you are. ‘Finding yourself’ is actually returning to yourself. An unlearning, an excavation, a remembering who you were before the world got its hands on you.” 

 – Emily McDowell

all is never lost

I’ve begun the process of re-scanning and re-uploading my old film photos to a new Flickr account. Starting with some of my favourites from a trip to New York in 2013...

 

“I laughed but before I could agree with the hairdressers that she was crazy, she said, 

‘What’s the world for if you can’t make it up the way you want it?’

‘The way I want it?’

‘Yeah. The way you want it. Don’t you want it to be something more than what it is?’

‘What’s the point? I can’t change it.’

‘That’s the point. If you don’t, it will change you and it’ll be your fault cause you let it. I let it. And messed up my life.’

‘Mess it up how?’

‘Forgot it.’

‘Forgot?’

‘Forgot it was mine. My life.’” 

―Toni Morrison, Jazz

Sunday: links I love

• Joan Didion, The Art of Fiction No. 71, interviewed by Linda Kuehl for the Paris Review
“I don’t know. I could say that I was writing to myself, and of course I was, but it’s a little more complicated than that. I mean the fact that eleven million people were going to see that page didn’t exactly escape my attention. There’s a lot of mystery to me about writing and performing and showing off in general. I know a singer who throws up every time she has to go onstage. But she still goes on.”

• A Window Into the Real Lauren Bacall, The New York Times
“‘Literally every tabletop had things on it,’ said Jon King, a vice president and the director of business development at the auction house Bonhams New York, describing the 4,000-square-foot apartment in the Dakota building on 72nd Street in Manhattan that Ms. Bacall bought for tens of thousands of dollars in 1961 and crammed with art and antiques including (and this is but a small sample) Henry Moore and Robert Graham sculptures, David Hockney photographs, Picasso pottery, Chinese bronze figures, Congolese head rests, Louis XV bureaus, Edwardian bamboo, Victorian needlework and Majolica china...”

• The Edwynn Houk Gallery’s selection of photos by Gail Albert Halaban on Tumblr
 

• Michael Salisbury’s industrial, architectural and cityscape photography on Instagram
  

• Hee Seo, principal dancer with American Ballet Theater, on Instagram
  

• Girls Against Humanity


• Mirko Rotondi’s Timeless Hotel photo series
  

Monday moodboard

   

“Some writing doesn’t brush up against sentimentality as often as other writing. But whatever ‘bad’ edge your writing brushes up against, I think it’s important to touch it. You can always pull back from it, but at least you know where it is. It’s like when I was a dancer, we were always encouraged to fall in rehearsal, so that you could know what the tipping point of any given movement was. That way, when you did it on the stage, you could be sure you were taking it to the edge without falling on your face. It sounds like a cliché, but really it’s just physics—if you don’t touch the fulcrum, you’ll never gain a felt sense of it, and your movement will be impoverished for it.” 
– Maggie Nelson, in response to ‘Is it important to risk sentimentality?’ in an interview with Genevieve Hudson

“The beauty of a fragment is that it still supports the hope of brilliant completeness.”
 – Tobias Wolff, from “Class Picture,” The New Yorker (6 January 2003)

“I guess my strongest recurring theme is honouring love even when it’s lost, and... staying hopeful and soft even when things get really difficult and hard.”
– Lana Del Rey, in response to ‘What are your recurring obsessions as a songwriter?’

interpol – tidal wave
lana del rey – video games (live at glastonbury)
lana del rey – yayo (rainy mood)
the xx – sunset
the 1975 – robbers (acoustic)
arctic monkeys – love is a laserquest
dawn richard – dark horse (katy perry cover)
lana del rey/jessica lange – gods and monsters (mashup)
the echo friendly – same mistakes
bleachers – i wanna get better
lorde – yellow flicker beat
lana del rey – ultraviolence (live)